I never noticed, but I’ve now gone past the one month mark on this blog.Â True, a couple of weeks of that was while I was on holiday, but I’m still counting it.Â It hasn’t yet (and maybe it never will) become a habit.Â We’ll have to see.
Raising kids is a tough job.Â I knew that before I took over this job, but I keep getting reminded of it everyday.Â This week, especially, has been tough.Â It seems that when ever the boys are at home, they start to bicker and get into trouble.Â I can’t seem to keep them busy enough.Â I’m glad this week is over and Marnie will be home for the weekend.Â I need a break, before I lose it again.
Yes, again.Â I pretty much lost it this afternoon with them.Â They both got a smack on the bottom and timeouts.Â The timeouts were okay, but the violence and raising my voice at them (for a prolonged period) is definately not okay.Â I ask them to work on things with me, but I know it’s really my job to keep my self in check… not theirs.Â I’m working on it.
I’ve become a REACTIVE instead of a PROACTIVE parent.Â I react, usually badly, to the things that happen in my household, that the boys do.Â When I started, I was proactive.Â I helped create the situations that stimulated the boys, and guided them a bit more.Â I’m hoping it’s the stress of summer.Â They say that knowing the problem is half the solution.Â I hope so.
Soul of the Samurai (Thomas Cleary)
– If anyone can point me to an authors web site, I’d appreciate it.
I’ve finished going through the outline, and started integrating my story evolution into the outline.Â So far, I’ve identified three new scenes, which will probably end up in a prologue of sorts.Â Personally, I don’t like prologues, but it certainly starts the story with a kick, without having to mess up the timeline.
I’m starting to get ansty.Â Although I’m reading, editing, and writing the outline, I don’t feel like I’m WRITING.Â I feel like I should just get in there and write the damn thing.Â I’ve felt this way when I starting speccing a piece of software.Â At some point in the design, I’ve always felt like I should just be coding it for chrissakes.Â Ahh well….
Jonathan Sherwood is posting about the process he used to write his novel.