I went back to my old work (the one I quit in order to take care of my kids).Â It truly was a terrible place to work.Â No organization to speak of; the boss would change his mind and implementation details with no notice.Â The software was basically a hodge-podge of badly implemented routines, creating a buggy whole.Â New features were added before bugs were fixed.Â I could go on.
Still, the problems created some sort of bonding between the developers.Â I noticed it even more so when I stepped down from being a (constantly undermined) manager, and rejoined the ranks.Â Where is all this going?Â Well, when I left yesterday, I could tell I was no longer ‘one of them’, and I wasn’t being let in on all the stuff I used to.Â I expected it to happen, after all I don’t see these people everyday anymore.Â Still, I left feeling a little emptier.Â I missed the feeling of closeness and belonging.Â It may be that some of it was simply knowing that I no longer had the daily adult discussions that I missed.Â I love my kids, but I really do miss adult company.Â Well, enough of that.
I set up our tent in the backyard yesterday, and the boys and Marnie (she insisted) slept in it last night.Â I would have joined them, but we couldn’t find the fourth sleeping bag.Â They were in there by about 7:30 PM, so I went for a motorcycle ride and then watched a bit of TV and had a scotch.Â The kids were super excited, and when I checked on them at 9:30 PM, Marnie and Jared were asleep, but Ryan was wide awake.Â I imagine he created quite a problem for Marnie.
I think tomorrow we’ll go for a hike somewhere, and then Halldor (from Vancouver) will come over for a visit.Â I think he really wants to use my wireless more than he wants to see us
Kushiel’s Avatar (Jacqueline Carey)
Lynn Viehl has a good exercise for sharpening your characterization skills at http://pbackwriter.blogspot.com/2006/06/whats-in-name.html